Perfect Is Shit

Not that I choose to stay up so late, just that I failed to sleep. In the meantime, I will just spend some time blogging before trying to sleep...again.

Knowing what is perfect sometimes makes you feel inferior. This happens so often when I play dotA. You can learn countless tricks through replays of pro players, however you often fail using their tricks because their skill level is way above yours. Same goes to me. I'm always slow in using Kelen's Dagger, hex or even stuns...that really discourage me since that always cost me the game. And I am always slow in judging my moves, meaning like when i am in a 5 versus 5 fight, I often stand in the middle of the battle wondering what to do next. When I thought of the best move: 

Respawn in ___ seconds....

Now you see, Why devote so much time in something that might disturb your feelings the rest of your day?

This question pops out of my mind sporadically. From time to time, I have find myself an excuse that DotA is a way to curb the emptiness of my life. Yes indeed, life is boring when I don't play DotA. But then, life is equally boring when I play dotA. See? Why? Lets give u an example:

Game 1

Wait 5 minutes for the host to finish tunneling and so on...

2 minutes for you, your allies and your opponents to choose their heroes...

5 minute into game, WindSkill has pawned  U_UMrGay for first Blood...

(All)U_UMrGay: host make lag la...ZZZ... noob! Noob Game

Few seconds later, U_UMrGay has left the game...

                             Harliluya has left the game....

(All)WindSkill: LOL, noob frens. RMK

(All)WindSkill(host) has left the game.

Typical scenario that happen in Garena Malaysia Room. 20 minutes of my life wasted.

Things like this is so common in Malaysian Garena DotA room... I find it boring and aimless to play such games...

Game 2

Lets say I play with a bunch of friends...

Sentinel:

Bunny-King

Littech

zzz...zzz..

DrFeeder

[fDr]DoGFeed

Scourge:

Mori.A

Mori.B

Mori.C

Aeon.ABC

Aeon.YamateH!

Before game starts,

DrFeeder: no leaver pls...

20 minute into game,

Aeon YamateH! has pawned DrFeeder for GODLIKE streak!!! Someone kill him!

(Private)DrFeeder: ei, its time to pp lor. Feed like dog edy...go join others.

Seconds later, DrFeeder has left the game.

(All)Aeon.YamateH!: Tech, ur fren noob la...tell him @#$% la

Of course I left the game since DrFeeder is my fren and we are going to play another game...

Guess What, let say I play two games of such quality, I would have squandered more than one hour of my life. The are certainly more examples of games that bores me. Sometimes your opponents' level is way too low, or sometimes it happens to your ally. This makes the chances to have a fairly balanced and fun game without any leaver to be almost impossible...

Well, honestly speaking, why had I come back to play this game of DotA after saying I will quit (more than three times)

It's all because of the replays I watch. It makes you feel like imitating the moves of the PRO players. However, the more I try, the more I fail. Success do come occasionally...but that is rare.

Actually, I am really thinking of quitting. Maybe I really need to start thinking of other things in life. Things i have neglected due to my obsession towards DotA and so on.

Wall of text!!!!

Argh....Wonder anyone will actually waste his or her time reading this

=D 

Thats all I guess....